23 June 2008

i lost my name tag which i wear to work
i keep finding and finding.. i dun even bother to ask my mum " did u see it?"
yesterday she and my papa quarrel.. i ignore..

then i just keep finding my name tag.. hour of searching..
my mum ask me wat i finding.. i told her a name tag wif my name on it..
she say saw it but dunno at where..
so i'm sure i left it at hme..

since yesterday till now i keep finding i still can't find it.
then my mama help to find.. i say dun bother cos i know she sure kao bei.. that why i ask her dun find.. i find myself.. but she still go finding on her own.. then fine.. let her be..

then i go cook maggie mee, cos no $$.. then she start she crap at me..
nowaday my temper fucking bad.. she still come n try water.

i shout at her.. dun find dun find lar..
she keep saying..
then still say.. i still cook the maggie mee that she bought

FUCK
i throw the maggie mee at one side..
my heart so pain.. hai
very very very pain

even a maggie mee.. she dun let me eat..
hai

when i'm working my ankle give me pain alot problem.. i also shut up.. dun wish to tell them...
my ankle swollen.. i shut up also..
i keep to myself
i force myself to walk normally
i keep quiet even it pain
i wish to see doctor but i choose nt to..
WHY?
i dunwan to own them anything anymore.. i dunwan them to start kao bei at me again..
i dunwan to heard them saying how useless i am..
wat i do, wat i say.. for them is all wrong..

i wish to kill myself, i wish i nt born..
but i'm coward.. i dun dare to kill myself

hai
wo zhen de hao lei



now i left onli my gf..
she is my everything..