Beautiful Memory

31 August 2008

I HATE MY MUM
FUCKER
IF I CAN
I REALLI WAN TO SLAP HER

ALL OF THOSE READING MY BLOG
STOP TELL ME
SHE IS MY MUM. ONE AND ONLI
COS I HAD ENOUGH OF HER
ENOUGH MEAN ENOUGH
I ALSO GT MY LIMIT

SHE KEEP PUSHING
I KEEP BACK OFF

EVEN SHE DEAD
I DUN EVEN CRY
I WILL NEVER CRY
I WILL NEVER NEVER CRY FOR HER

U GUY, STOP THINKING I'M EVIL OR FUCK UP
I'M NOT

STOP SAYING THAT I'M WRONG
I'M NOT
I AM NOT

NOT BECAUSE SHE IS MY MUM THEN U THINK SHE RIGHT.
I SHOULD FORGIVE HER
THIS 23 YR OF MY LIFE..
U KNOW HOW HARD I WENT THROUGH

U ALL DUNNO..

IF U ALL DUNNO JUST SHUT UP AND AGREE WITH ME OR ELSE GET LOST

NO BODY IS HELPING ME..

I REFER GOING TO JAIL OR SOMEWHERE ELSE THAN MY HOUSE U KNOW.

FUCK UP..
I GETTING FED UP..
SHE JUST USE HER FUCKING POWER AND SCOLD ME

CHEE BYE
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PPL IS HOME SWEET HOME
MINE JUST A EMPTY SHELL

I KNOW MAYBE U GUYS IS WORST THAN ME
BUT
BUT
THAT IS MY LIMIT

MY HEARTBREAK DOWN

I REALLI DUN WISH TO HAVE THIS FAMILY
I WISH I NEVER BORN BEFORE

MY PATH IS DARKNESS..
I DUNNO WHERE I SHOULD GO..

EVERY STEP I GO..
FOR HER IS WRONG
WRONG
WRONG
WRONG
WRONG
WRONG
WRONG


=____________(

18 July 2008

TODAY WORK WORK WORK...

haha..
morning went paya labar for kind of lesson thing..
onli 1hour plus

after that i went to work,
during evening my dear buy me coffee cos i was doing paper work making wanna to slp..
haha

thank u thank u !!

end of work.. i went n took a pic of my fav, Guinea Pig..
it realli very cute..

going 2 month of working at Pet safari..
i learn quite alot thing
for example

DOG dry food. medicine. different kind of shampoo alot..
same as for CAT.

as for hamster. how to deal wif a hamster
after it give birth wat to do..
food.. alot =x

haha
the most impt is. i able to see my dear most of the time..
hehe
miss her so much =x

PICTURE


i wan this but overall price very ex

15 July 2008

today same as usual, working 1pm to 10pm but very slpy
reach hme at 11pm then go running
my ankle since evening start to give me problem again PAIN..

but i still able to force myself to jog.. hee

On, 12 July 2008
Went to sentosa with junhao, wan seen, yewen, cheexiang, nicholas, weicong, peilin, peiying, winne, sharon and me..

but some of them went back earli cos they gt something to attend.
it kind of bored cos there some event going on. it all over the beach..=(
somemore THERE NO SUN ..

but we still able to play volleyball n games.
we settle our dinner at long john

it been so long that we gather =)

after everything.. my gf come n find me..
left junhao, wan seen, yewen and me , gf
we went window shopping

hope there more coming up =x

On 14 july
same... working at 1pm to 10pm..
as the same time, my gf was having her gather at their chalet
when i reach hme.. my gf was asking me
"i wanna to join them at the chalet "

i went cos i miss my gf

reach there... tok to her friend then i went to slp=x
next morning then went to work..

YAWN

end of story.. i go slp..
as for the pic.. tml i wake up then upload


misss u =x

PICTURE.

one head taller =x


she force me


me and winnie


peiying, me , peilin


snap snap


THE GUY




Take one #1


Take two #2


PAPA and MAMA


i love her

10 july 2008

YAWN

sososososo tired..

this week.. i'm off on SAT
Saturday going gathering wif my friend at sentosa..

i gt a feeling .. it will be very fun =x

nowaday keep running after i reach hme it will be around 11.15pm
then everytime end at 12.30

today i very lazy.. i onli run .. i did nt do any sit up, extra exercises...
cos the floor is wet, somemore feel slpy..

my mama scold me.. me slim till like ghost..
so ugly.. my face so pale and so sharp
dunno it truth or she wan me to stop running..

tml working at 11am.. gt to wake up earli
ok.. i going to slp..

nite

07 july 08

HI,

over the weekend i went to my gf's house slp..
so happy when i wif her.. i keep eating
haha.. happy realli make me eat alot =x

so peace so comfort when i wif her

we planning our oversea trip taipei.. but i need to renew my passport.. around 70 DOLLAR.
so ex..
IT KILL

hai.. hope i still gt $$

=x

working everyday, everysec.. so tired..

finally i plan a gathing to sentosa, this coming sat..

i very sure .. it will be very fun x=

26 June 2008

HI.

afternoon went swimming..
evening went running..

just bored nth better to do..

after running i met JUNHAO..
so long i did nt see u le..
we have a guy to guy chat.. =x

after that i meet my buddy Joan..
she hungry then we went pasamala.. she buy her food then i wait for her wif my running attire

then she met her friend along the way when we going to find a place to sit ..
her friend tag along

there a big group of aunite was dancing.. then we just sitting near them.. it fun to look at them dancing wif their old age..

i wonder when i'm old.. will i be like them.. so happy n dance wif alot of friend =x
i'm sure it will be alot fun.

ya then i was chatting wif my buddy all the way till 11.30 then we just went back hme..




my ankle still give me pain but it better than when the very 1st day of running after my operation that is realli HELL..






Dear i dunno wat happen.. u just dunwan to tell me..
i worry..
i feel so uneasy...



just jia u..
will acc you along ur way =)

23 June 2008

i lost my name tag which i wear to work
i keep finding and finding.. i dun even bother to ask my mum " did u see it?"
yesterday she and my papa quarrel.. i ignore..

then i just keep finding my name tag.. hour of searching..
my mum ask me wat i finding.. i told her a name tag wif my name on it..
she say saw it but dunno at where..
so i'm sure i left it at hme..

since yesterday till now i keep finding i still can't find it.
then my mama help to find.. i say dun bother cos i know she sure kao bei.. that why i ask her dun find.. i find myself.. but she still go finding on her own.. then fine.. let her be..

then i go cook maggie mee, cos no $$.. then she start she crap at me..
nowaday my temper fucking bad.. she still come n try water.

i shout at her.. dun find dun find lar..
she keep saying..
then still say.. i still cook the maggie mee that she bought

FUCK
i throw the maggie mee at one side..
my heart so pain.. hai
very very very pain

even a maggie mee.. she dun let me eat..
hai

when i'm working my ankle give me pain alot problem.. i also shut up.. dun wish to tell them...
my ankle swollen.. i shut up also..
i keep to myself
i force myself to walk normally
i keep quiet even it pain
i wish to see doctor but i choose nt to..
WHY?
i dunwan to own them anything anymore.. i dunwan them to start kao bei at me again..
i dunwan to heard them saying how useless i am..
wat i do, wat i say.. for them is all wrong..

i wish to kill myself, i wish i nt born..
but i'm coward.. i dun dare to kill myself

hai
wo zhen de hao lei



now i left onli my gf..
she is my everything..

18 June 2008

WORKING EVERYDAY,

I'm so tired,
at work this few day, i was teach to learn how to be a Cashier and do those paper work..
so stress when i was at the cashier but the time pass faster..

nowaday so unlucky, dunno how to explain.. just sway (wish tml will be better)

tml morning i still gt a product lesson at HQ which is at PAYA LABAR sigh...

=(

i go slp le..

dear i love u =)
dun think too much =)
hehe!!

(i HATE money that why i love to SPEND but i dun wish to GIVE)

11 June 2008

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09 June 2008

VERY TIRED AR...

my back pain
my leg that operation gt abit of swollen

hai..

but more n more use to working at petlovescentre le..
so nt bad..

hehe..

i go slp..
bye

03 June 2008

Just come back from working.

1st day of work:
Remember where the product are places.
write alot of barcode name band price etc.
learn how to use the system.

haha =x
tml going to petlovescenter HQ for a product introduction talk.
start at 0900 end at 1100
start work at 1300
end work at 2200

Today i tot i was able to touch those dogs there but who know. it gt 3 department in there..
sell thing. dogs and grooming..

i belong to retail side.. so cannot do much for dog and groom area, kind of sad =)
but nvm i still alot to see them x=..

they so cute =x

i swear i swear,
there one day i'm going to buy a dog for myself.. =x
ok i end here.. tml need to wake up earli..
but i will post a very sweet picture..
remember to see wor.. =x

i call it "MINI SINGAPORE FLYER"

03 June 2008

YESTERDAY ORD

TODAY WORKING at pet safari(vivo)

..

Yesterday, i met one of my campmate which is about the same date ORD with me but he is 5 day later..
we meet 0730 for breakfast, then we take cab to camp. my treat =x

reach camp, i go do my ORD paperwork and i went go visit the MO over medical centre cos on the 06 June i need to go back SGH in order nt to pay a single cent. he gt to write document for it so when i go back SGH i dun need to pay.

after all paperwork this n that.. then i went to collect my NIRC..
it so PINK.. haha =x

i went around the camp wif my NIRC
haha..

so fun yet so sad cos gt to say bye bye to those dogs.

reach hme..
I call the pet safari(vivo) double comfirm what time am i going to start work.
they ans. i ask them. then i wait.
then way they reply so hmmmmmm dun care attitude..
give me the kind of feel that IT SUCK. nt friendly

but still
maybe there a change when i go there leh..
hehe =x

Evening, i went pick-up my dear and went to her hme for dinner.. hehe.. =)

okok i shall end here
gt to get ready for work..

wish me luck

01 June 2008

ONE MORE DAY TO ORD
finally wait for 2yr of my NS life going to come to a END!!

haha

i can able to touch my PINK NIRC again =x

and

i find myself a JOB at vivo pet safari
(if u need anything or everything about pet come ask me)

Hopefully by OCT i be able to study again.

i and my dear had plan a oversea trip hopefully will success!!

as for my leg 06 june going back SGH to check out again

just hope everything gone well..!!

=)

ORD LO



PS:
dear ar, sorry i make u angry quite alot of time, but it make us understand each other rite?
just bear wif me for awhile.. i will change and tell u how i feel.
i know ur wish.
it also my wish but right now i can't..
i promise ur wish sure will come true,

believe me, trust me.
I LOVE U!

31 May 2008

PAST FEW DAY PICTURE:


at SINGAPORE RIVER watching performance




SINGAPORE FLYER far view

25 May 2008

i will blog 21 May 2008 what happen..

ON 21 May 2008 0800 at SGH waiting room
for my turn..

i was told to reach there at 0800HR
so i reach there wif my mama n papa at 0800HR

we wait for my turn to be called..

around 0915HR
a nurse come n called my name.. as i follow her to a room
she test my heart beat this n tat ask me question
how i am?gt flu?gt cough?

actually, on that day i gt flu. but i say dunwan..
just dunwan to wait anymore...

ya
after that those check up n question.. she put a plastic kind of thing around my hand.(PICTURE 1)
after that she ask me go back to the room where i was just now to wait for doctor to called again..
so i wait........

about to 1100HR
doctor came n call, i follow him..
he ask the same QUESTION, then he ask me point out where is the place that make me pain.. i point n his draw a arrow for later operation.. (PICTURE 2)

then same. i go back to the room again..
ya.. my parent still waiting inside the room..

around 1pm
the nurse say.. they prepare bed for me ask me go there rest to wait to be called..
i went ward 75 lvl 6 room 24 .. i forget wat is the bed number le..
haha

the room like so fuck up.. no choice cos i nt going for chalet.. haha
so i stay .. rest... they come in.. say around 1.30pm i will go for my operation..

am i scare?
ok lar..
just past n passes of my life.. just face it..

2pm then they come n ask me get ready.. change into the DRESS that i was told for the operation.. haha..
after that a guy push the portable bed.. came n ask me rest on that.. he push me all the way to the place where i going operation..

ha.. kind of fun.. 1st time begin push around..

ya.. i went in, my parent outside..
i was told n wait inside.. they come ask me the same QUESTION again. haha
then i push into a room.. wait for my turn..
while i was waiting.. a nurse come n put the GRIP into my body..
n say i will be slping later so i wun know wat happen..but the doctor will put a pipe into my mouth it help me to breath..

then i go in.. and i SLEEP..

i wake up, i open my eye.. i saw clock.. it show 5.45pm.. i was think..
WTF!
so long.. then next i feel there thing inside my mouth.. feel so uneasy.. lucky the nurse notice that i wake up.. she help me remove that.. wah.. it so PAIN when she remove lar.. cos it damm big ha

then i was push to my ward.. n i was told i will stay over nite over there..

sian..
then my family acc me for a while then they go back.
after my famil gone..
my camp mate and sgt come n see me..

we tok we play..
i look that i just fine.. haha..
i dun feel pain dun feel anything.. the nurse say it a gd thing haha..

but they give me a container inside hold 2 tiny kind of body thing.. it inside from my body de..
cool rite? haha

next day .. i was told i can go hme le.. n 2 week MC,
after 2 week, i gt to go back for preview..
that will be 05june08
but i ORD.. haha

which mean earli ORD.. haha
but i still gt to go back camp on my last day cos i need to take back my NRIC

END..
PICTURE

First Picture


Second Picture


From my body




PICTURE WHICH I GO VIVO I TAKE DE..(24 May 2008)

18 May 2008

i just post a song..
it might be old for u all but it still so sweet n romantice

11 May 2008

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

Me and my sis bought a handbag for our mother
that nt all..

same as usually, came back from camp.
wish my mum, happy mother's day..

after that i told her, wan to go out eat dinner instead having at hme..
she reply, why nt now..
ok.. she call the shoot

12pm, meet up with my sis. we went bishan(J8), Firstly, we choose "Ajisan" also my favourite but they give us the seat too small n hot. SO we just stand up n get out.. haha !!

END UP, we having our lunch at Cafe Cartel,
we have our fun over there =)

after our lunch, we went to AMK Hub
Do our window shopping.
and my gf join us..

around evening time, my mum wanna to go hme.. as for me..
i went to my gf hse.. cos they bought Smell toufu for me...
=)

that it..
after the talk,makan
and i went hme.
=)

PICTURE

Mum Eating her RIB
ha


LOVE HER

09 May 2008

ORD DATE GETTING NEARER 020608
OPERATION DATE GETTING NEARER 210508

GETTING HOPE THE OPERATION GET IT DONE FAST

Today me n my dear went to paya labar to eat our favourite SMELLY TOFU =x
then we went bishan for our dinner
after dinner went back to AMK to look for Present

hehe

but i gt surprise for my dear
hehe

the picture will tell u =)


HAND IN HAND


we so sweet


Flower that is the surprise



P/S: I LOVE U

03 May 2008

ORD at o6 june 08

happy or sad?

hmmmmmmmmmm

happy is i can get out of NS
sad is i gt to say gd bye to those DOGS

this few day.. me was at my gf hse.
i acc her cos her family gone oversea

nothing much to say
we just love to take picture haha =x


MUACK


MUACK

30 April 2008

ARG.... I HATE FLU
cannot take it xia.. =x

sob sob

so tired cos just back from camp..

tonight watching IRON MAN WIF MY DEAR..

haha yeah .. so happy.. =x

okok i v sick.. i need to go slp.. later gt to go running..

29 April 2008

YUP! just back from SGH

21 May 2008 = OPERATION
but very troublesome, cos i need to go back SGH for the blood test see weather i'm fix for the Operation..

i so fix still gt to test meh?

hahaha
:x
:x
:x
:x
OOP!

now going perpare going back to camp ....

just hope 21 may dun come so EARLI

..

dear i love u =)

28 April 2008

Yesterday wanna to write blogging but too lazy.
end up sleeping ..zzzZZZZZZZ

haha

yesterday i went for my driving lesson, yes i start my driving lesson again..
after that

i meet my darling at amk hub. walk walk chat chat

after that i met my buddy at her void deck chit chat so long did nt see her liao..
SHE SAY WHY MY FACE NT FAT BUT BODY FAT..

i wanna to slap her lar

=(
spoil my day


OKOK!! CHANGE UP...
i'm going for SGH again, just to tell them i agree with the Operation =x
then i going back to camp !
GOD BLESS!

PICTURE


my gf's sis baby..


both of us so cute =x


God Mum and her Son


COUPLE(JJ)


COUPLE(JJ)


THIS BUDDY.. u more fat then me lar

27 April 08

Morning went to meet KamSum cos i wanna her PSP games.
after i acc her to buy her stuff then take mrt together..
she drop off at YCK..

as for me..
i went to meet my DALING..
haha..
we went
Bugis
suntec
AMK HUB

we watch movie-
Forbudden Kingdom-very nice but lame.. how come in the older day they know how to speak ENGLISH..OMG haha

me and my daling keep laughing =x

after that.. i send her hme.. and i headed hme too

end of the day




next movie- iron man



my daling design.. love u

25 April 08

BACK FROM CAMP..

ROT AT HOME..

4PM WENT FOR MY DRIVING LESSON

8PM FINE EVELYNN FOR DINNER AND MOVIE

12AM REACH HME

---------
me n eyelynn watch street king
nt bad..

today nth happen.. just feel like slping.. haha

OINK OINK OINK.
slp lo

20 april 08

SHOULD I BUY K850I OR OTHER.?

any comment on that phone..?







sry, today write till here.. very tired.. i go slp le ..
nite

18 april 08

SORRY XIAOMAN, i cannot acc u for your interview..
sorry sorry ...

Today, rotting at hme till evening
Evening, went out with my da ling, we suppose to meet Dhoby Ghaut but i'm late.. so we decide to meet at amk..

we had our dinner, then MOVIE..

the main topic is the MOVIE
we watching: Funny Games

while we watching the movie, at de mid point the show just STOP and the light ON
we were like so stunn,

WAT HAPPEN!?!?!?!?!?!?

some of them walk out n ask why..
as for me.. waiting to see wat happen.

we waited quite sometime, then the light OFF, the show START where it stop.

it so so so
SPOIL MOOD!!

SIGH!!

-----------

Overall, the show quite nt bad.
it about 2 ASSHOLE, disturbed and wanted to killed the whole Family.
and they trying to get away from them.

Those ASSHOLE they really know how to use words and body language provoke them.
to make those family member to start to fight/games

..
ok i write till here le..


SEE N TAG OKIE..
thx u

Ankle so so so so PAIN

TODAY
MY
ANKLE
SO
SO
SO
PAIN!!!

=___(

Last few day, i went for SGH cos of my ankle problem
the building there quite messy, i can't find the block which i gt to attend
i nearli lost my way ....

Block 3, take my number and wait for my turn............

WAIT..........
WATIT....
WAAIITT......
WAIITIIT..........

AND

WAIT.................................

i went inside the room, the doctor take my X RAY..
he say
he dunno wat happen to my ankle..
i was thinking...(OMG how can he dunno)
then he took my Xray to his boss

he return:
he say maybe my ankle growing a new layer of BONE cos of those blood store at the ankle..

he give me two choice

1. go for OP
2. leave it there but maybe will grow something there(low percentage %%)

i told the doctor, i cannot give u an answer right now.. so he give me 2 week to think.. after 2 week go back to him..

tell him the final ans

but i'm still THINKING......


THINKING
THINKING
THINKING.......

13 April 08

Morning,i just woke up by my camp mate..
now great, i cannot get back to slp somemore i slp at 3+am leh..

so so tired..!!

talk about yesterday staff.

Yesterday happen sumthing, it spoil all my mood .. drop down to 0 zero
but everything start to turn around in de evening.. i hope it ok

DUN THINK TOO MUCH..JUST STAY WIF ME

i met my buddy.. Joan.. cos she just dismiss from school, so she gt time to keep me acc..
wanna to buy shoes cos my shoes that i wearing currently realli can throw but i still finding a shoes that is better than mine old de

haha...

my da ling sick le..
hope she will recover soon enough..

end

06 april 2008

TODAY WENT OUT WIF MY DAR LING.

(i enjoy my day with u)


thx!!


ME and U


Light Up


ME


YOU


US